day 10

i decided to let u go...let u have the freedom u wanted..but always remmeber, u still owe me the explainations...i will be waiting..miss u always

Day6

I messaged u today,i said i will let your free for the moment to think properly and be friends. I am trying,trying v hard to set you free...After Michelle bf- allan told me in your point of view...i started to realise i did'nt step in your shoes and see how the matter is like. i might have override you in some ways because i planned everything for you ahead nicely.Scare that you will get hurt..It might be against your pride, but it's all because i scare you will get hurt.

If you really wants to think about it, how long do you want to take?

If you have a problem, you have to think ways to solve it...I felt like scolding you,for being so so so silly...but words don't come out of my mouth...i guess the only closest person to you is your sister...

but no matter what, as a friend or GF, i will still wait for you. until the day that you are willing to open again.

Remember, even if you give up on yourself, i will never give up on you...i will stand by you.

i love you...i miss you...

Dum2

Today is the 24th March 2009, which is the 4th day. i message you everyday...U told me not too call you, but every moment, my hands have the urge to call u. i know you would'nt answer even if you are able to. But i called anyway, no answer...no answer...message, no replies.

i been having this dream...

i am looking for you, walk and walk into a forest. i saw you, but once i call u...u run,so i run after you...u were too fast, i tried to catch up and you disappears. i collapse on the floor,don't know and unsure what i should do to find you. the urge, the worries i have, i know i cannot give up. i stand up and walk and i landed in this place...u were in this bubble,seems like sleeping,so soundly...but straggling. i tried to burst the bubble to get you out. once i burst, the bubble form around you again...everytime the dream ends here and i always find myself crying for u...

do you still remember this?

you are my sunshine,my only sunshine
you makes me happy when skies are grey
you never know dear how much i love u
oh please dun take my sunshine away

but now you dun wan your sunshine, but i won't let you walk into the darkness alone...
Dar, i know since young there's problems that hinders you till now...i am always there and love to here...no matter what i will solve it with you, we can do it together...

Please come back...
i love you and i miss you so much...

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

Dum2

Day 3

Last messagefrom you last night.

Dum2, please don't call me again and leave me alone for a while.*muackx (this is my last kiss to u)

Dar, why are you so silly? You definatly have problems that you don't want me to know. That's why you are like that, tell me...If you have no feelings for me anymore, why would you still give the last kiss? I am worried about you...i told you already, i will not give up on you, so u don't too...We are gonna solve everything together...We promised each other that we will be there for each other, i will always be there...Please... come back...

I love you and miss you lots...

Your Dum2

Day 1

Dar, this is the day you ask for break up. This day, you came, hold my hands and we walked to take train. I read my book while you read my magazine. You looked troubled and tired, i wanted to ask...
Fears lingers around me...

I alighted the train, you gave me a kiss on my cheek...I never knows, that's my last kiss from you...
I message you: Dar, what's the matter...you look like you wanted to tell me something.
You replied: Yes i do...
Next you wrote: Everything i do seems like a chore to me, i lost my feelings for you, its better to be friends. I am sorry dum2...(i don't want to write the full version,too long and i will cry again and again)

when i saw this, i turn numb,too numb to think. the only that comes to my mind is not to let you leave me...tears flow down automatically...3yrs...You said you no longer had feelings for me long time ago and yet you can strive through 3yrs...i don't believe it at all...you had problems in your mind, that you would'nt want to tell me...
i had a sleepless night, memories of you came to me,happen just like yesterday...so real, the things we do...whenever i closed my eyes...i chose to stare in the darkness...tears flows...

You are always like that,hide your problems from me,remember i said that we will shall our problems and you agreed..But you hide it again...

Tell me about it, we'd been through thick and thin...i will share the burden with you and i am willing to.

I still remember, when we got caught by my dad, when he asked: you like my daughter is it?I thought you will answer no...but you said yes...i felt so proud of u!!! i really do...


Do you still remember?
I told u i love u more than anything,u promised not to leave me alone again.


Today, i went to work,everything seems die,endless...i dazed out of the bus window, thinking hard, what did i do wrong to let you choose to leave me...As i am thinking, tears drop again...and again when am at work...I tried controlling it,in the end,running to the toilet and cry...soundless...
As i walked home,without realise, i walked into CCK park...memories flow again...The laughter, the kisses...i stood there then it rains...i stood there in the rain,crying...thinking where am i wrong at...

i message you and called u...no replies...the oli msg u reply is when i asked, is ther a 3rd party? You said, there might be there might be not...which means there is'nt...

i wish you could tell me what is happening...what are u thinking...what is going in your mind...i tried very very hard...

dar, i love you i really do...please come back,we can talk about it...there's no problems that we can't solve, tries is all we neeeded...i need you so much...Without, i am aimless,empty...

I MISS YOU....

your Dum2...