Day 1

Dar, this is the day you ask for break up. This day, you came, hold my hands and we walked to take train. I read my book while you read my magazine. You looked troubled and tired, i wanted to ask...
Fears lingers around me...

I alighted the train, you gave me a kiss on my cheek...I never knows, that's my last kiss from you...
I message you: Dar, what's the matter...you look like you wanted to tell me something.
You replied: Yes i do...
Next you wrote: Everything i do seems like a chore to me, i lost my feelings for you, its better to be friends. I am sorry dum2...(i don't want to write the full version,too long and i will cry again and again)

when i saw this, i turn numb,too numb to think. the only that comes to my mind is not to let you leave me...tears flow down automatically...3yrs...You said you no longer had feelings for me long time ago and yet you can strive through 3yrs...i don't believe it at all...you had problems in your mind, that you would'nt want to tell me...
i had a sleepless night, memories of you came to me,happen just like yesterday...so real, the things we do...whenever i closed my eyes...i chose to stare in the darkness...tears flows...

You are always like that,hide your problems from me,remember i said that we will shall our problems and you agreed..But you hide it again...

Tell me about it, we'd been through thick and thin...i will share the burden with you and i am willing to.

I still remember, when we got caught by my dad, when he asked: you like my daughter is it?I thought you will answer no...but you said yes...i felt so proud of u!!! i really do...


Do you still remember?
I told u i love u more than anything,u promised not to leave me alone again.


Today, i went to work,everything seems die,endless...i dazed out of the bus window, thinking hard, what did i do wrong to let you choose to leave me...As i am thinking, tears drop again...and again when am at work...I tried controlling it,in the end,running to the toilet and cry...soundless...
As i walked home,without realise, i walked into CCK park...memories flow again...The laughter, the kisses...i stood there then it rains...i stood there in the rain,crying...thinking where am i wrong at...

i message you and called u...no replies...the oli msg u reply is when i asked, is ther a 3rd party? You said, there might be there might be not...which means there is'nt...

i wish you could tell me what is happening...what are u thinking...what is going in your mind...i tried very very hard...

dar, i love you i really do...please come back,we can talk about it...there's no problems that we can't solve, tries is all we neeeded...i need you so much...Without, i am aimless,empty...

I MISS YOU....

your Dum2...